we all give fitz...right?

there's nothing like deleting a memory

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 04:50:26 GMT

[hey]

i just want to be ok, you know?
but i guess that's not ok.

no one's ok.
i'm unable to help myself.

lolmk?

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 19:49:15 GMT

lately, i've:

x started singing the ABC's at least ten times a day
x def. gone overboard with the texting/cell phone usage
x finished Gone With The Wind, all 1036 bible pages of small print
x watched every episode of Top Design on Bravo
x missed my iPod severely
x talked to sara mac, sammy, danielle and josh more than i ever have in my liiiife
x started to see things the way they really are
x become more accepting
x stopped with the dramatics
x been really mad, over nothing
or
x haven't been mad enough over things
x gotten rejected from my almost summer job
x found out i have my first ever two cavities
x been afraid of getting them filled on Monday/Thursday
x just been plain upset.

so far, this break's been kinda sucky. all the good days have been ruined with cruddy things that no one cares about or cruddy things that only i care about or cruddy things that i don't care enough about. i miss my friends. the one day we got to do something and actually go out, turned into the stupid day where people made bad choices. honestly, i've spent most of this break by myself, (EXCEPT FOR THAT EXTREME DDR) reading that book, but i really wanted to get it done. it's one of those things that not everybody does, and it's honestly the best book i've ever read. it put me in my place, for sure.

no thanks, i don't camp.

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 01:55:48 GMT

i'm in another very frusterated mood right now.
reece has some pretty obnoxious friends, to tell you the truth. they came over right in mid-nap and kicked me out of the living room so i went in my room. then my aunt calls. the boys won't answer the phone. so i have to wake up out of a dead sleep, cross the house, answer the phone to tell my brother to get ready for church. ok. so i go back to bed. ten minutes later the phone rings again. so i get up, cross the house, pick up the phone and it's my aunt again to tell me that reece is gone. thanks. i probably would've missed that if i slept through that call. it was UTTERLY VITAL.
so finally once everybody's gone and everyone stopped calling i started my Gatsby. another chapter with imagery that makes me feel retarted. two pages into it, my mom comes home and is ready to ramble on about her day for a long, long time. i can't read and talk and answer questions. frankly, just not that talented. she gives me the run through about how i should be in church, and eventually leaves and i half-finish my Gatsby. then i cleaned the house and did some laundry while watching ANTM. then my mom and reece come home when i'm trying to complete the Gatsby and just talk and talk and talk and talk. and they never, ever stop. they fight and yell and can't even take it in the other room. YAY. then aunt donna comes over. "why weren't you in church?"
well. let me tell you about my day, and let you know why i didn't go to church.

ich liebe das auto!

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 01:07:16 GMT

and if i could swim.
i'd swim out to you in the ocean
swim out to where you were floating.

HEY DANIELLE.
we're the only people who post.
what up bia?
danke schon for the 'i tried' sticker
it's currently the background for my cellular phone.

i got a C on my Chem test, that i thought i did well on
what will my math grade be on a test where i know i did bad?
we'll just have to wait.
i'm SO PUMPED.

super secret.

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 21:31:26 GMT

JUST TO LET YOU ALL KNOW
i love DANIELLE PHELAN x289347239847239847238409238409238409238409238409238409238409238409238409238409238402398403298402938409238409238230942309840238420382309432.
just that simple
D = DANIELLE
(not just my math grade)

Say Whaaaaaaaat!?

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 23:26:35 GMT

Excuse me?
What did you say?
Did you just say that SARA EILEEN LONG is happy, for once?
Did I just hear you say that she's not sitting around waiting for things to happen?
Did you just say that she's free of this?

YES
THAT IS WHAT YOU HEARD.
SPREAD IT AROUND.

SHE'S DONE feeling sorry for herself and everyone else and is going to see all of her friends and have a really good time. she's almost done with her junior year, and deserves some happiness after one year of deja vu. she's happy for you, too. because she knows you're going to use your time to it's advantages. SHE'S READY TO GET STARTED.

PS: i think i'm entitled to some immaturity. i'm only sixteen years old. i'm nowhere near finished.

i hope you're not talking about banana cubes...

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 19:41:47 GMT

hmm. old livejournal.
not really sure what to say, because i'm very cold right now.
i watched stepmom last night with my mom and i cried.
and cried.
and cried.

oh sheesh.
yesterday: i stayed home all day. i did some laundry, played DDR and watched television all day. i was gonna go out but i started to feel nauseous all of a sudden and then just didnt feel good enough to go.
friday: i hung out with josh and danielle, which was pretty fun. i played some DDR and killed danielle, which was funny.
thursday: sound of music is eating my life. i waltzed for two hours and it was really fun. i can't wait for the practices to become more frequent so i can have something to dooo.

man oh man. what can i say? i guess things are going the way i want for a change. but i cannot assume that. i can't start thinking that this is taken care of and i can't start talking myself into what i want. i cannot stand to get hurt one more time. but i know i'll do it again and again and again. hopefully that won't happen.

"No one in the world loves you like I do, and no one ever will."

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 22:24:30 GMT

Hope you live to be 100.
Hope you live to be 100.
Hope you live to be 100,
and then 100 more!

you probably think this song is about you.

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 22:23:01 GMT

You had me several years ago when I was still quite naive
Well you said that we made such a pretty pair
And that you would never leave
But you gave away the things you loved and one of them was me

I had some dreams, they were clouds in my coffee
Clouds in my coffee, and...

You're so vain

teh sadsauce.

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 04:04:10 GMT

i've never been more serious.
not even kidding.
but of course it's just not good enough
damn.
maybe one day i'll be good enough
but that probably won't ever happen
nope.
i better just get used to it
i won't ever be good enough for you.

no joke.

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 03:18:38 GMT

I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles
I Will Dance Around In Circles

who needs a subject when things blow?

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 01:24:39 GMT

I CAN GUARANTEE YOU
that i am the dumbest person you know. i make the most mistakes. and say the dumbest things. i ruin the best of things and waste the greatest opportunities. it's 8:30 and i'm going to force myself to sleep because my life is such a fucking waste. the best thing in the world just left me for good. hopefully i'm just overanalyzing the situation again, but i would not forgive someone if they were like that to me. in that sense, i hope you're nothing like me. i deserve to be miserable.

move along, like i know you do.

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 02:21:59 GMT

headsup,kids.
it's mutual
but i'm a different person
-slow to trust.
-quick to laugh
-quick to forgive
-slow to understand reasoning..

(i won't read between the lines but if you're the first to write on the page, i'll compose you a novel)

What is Huck and Jim's plan to reach safe territory?

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 02:47:51 GMT

my dad surprised me today. he was actually decent. and he was actually not stupid or irritating today. he's an interesting character.

exhibit a) MICHIGAN KIDS ARE HICKS

"You know, when I was 19, they changed the drinking age from 18 to 21, so we had Uncle Bill supply the beverages and we would sit on the banks of the good ol' Red Run and watch the sun set. Oh yes, good times."

exhibit b) GOOD KIDS GET THE MONEY

"Don't tell your brothers, but I slipped an extra $15 in your envelope just because you don't start fights at the dinner table and your homework's always done. Good work."

well pops, you're good for a chuckle and a fifteenspot.
haha. he's not bad everyonce in a while.

and it's way too bad that i'm incredibly naiive, and immature.
thought process.
it's an AMAZING concept.

do you know what you're missing?

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 19:58:56 GMT

YOU SPEAK A FORIEGN LANGUAGE_{ONE I CAN'T UNDERSTAND.}i'm sick of being sad all of the time. so i think i'll stop now! you confuse the hell out of me, but the least i could do is be nice, right? i'll take this opportunity to enjoy what i can and accept what i cannot change.
BOYS SPEAK IN RHYTHM_{AND GIRLS IN CODE.}

my poor chapped lips..

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 02:07:40 GMT

TODAY I HATE
MATH
HOMEWORK
HUCKLEBERRY FINN
BAND
YOU
CONFUSING THINGS
BEING COLD
WAITING
TAKING OUT THE GARBAGE
BEING WOKEN UP
AP CHEMISTRY
STUPID, FAKE CHRISTMAS TREES
STUPID GIRLS IN ECONOMICS
BEING STUPIDLY FORGETFUL
BEING TOLD WHAT'S GOOD FOR ME
WHAT YOU SAID ON WEDNESDAY
YOUR INABILITY TO ACCEPT ANYTHING
EVERYTHING.

americasnexttopmodelseasonfinale. wednesday. myhouse. seventhirty. bethereorbesomewhereelse.

but i really really really dont like youuu

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 02:20:13 GMT

kimi quotes songs at me cuz she knows it makes me mad. i always think she's saying something profound and there she goes off with the crazy song lyrics as usual.
tomorrow's my birthday. why am i still sad?
tomorrow's my birthday. you wait all year for it and here it is.
tomorrow's my birthday. i'm not very excited about it.
tomorrow's my birthday. why can't i spend it with you?

so mothers be good, to your daughters too

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 00:56:55 GMT

Start Time- 7:44
2. Name - Sara
3. Astrology sign- Sagittarius
5. Eye color - brownn
6. Favorite color - RED
7. Glasses - Nope.
8. Tattoos – Nope.
9. Hometown - fraser
10. Sibling's name - REECE

*HAVE YOU EVER*
12. Cut your own hair? no, but ive got hair cuts that look like i did it myself, they've been that bad.
13. Did you do something in the past month that you regret? almost everyday
14. Skipped school? no
15. Bungee-jumped? Nope.
16. Punched someone? just reece. hah.
17. Cheated on a test? once in drivers training..
18. Been arrested? naw
19. Broken into someone's house? not really, but i dont knock when i go to abby's
20. Been rejected? suure
21. Been to a funeral? Yep
22. Used a lighter? yes
23. Been on stage? Yes

*FAVORITE*
24. Season- when fall turns to winter, it's a whole season on its own
25. Food- Spaghetti
26. Ice cream flavor- cookie dough
27. Candy – im a kit kat girl
28. Breakfast – im good with cereal, any kind
29. person at the moment- that would have to be KIMI
30. Book – the awakening ;; kate chopin
31. Song – whatever im in the mood for
32. River - THE NILE
33. Place – thats a seeecret
34. Sport to watch on TV – probably football
35. Disney movie- pocahontas
36. Disney princess- *seeabove. she def. does count!
37. Name for a son - not suure
38. Name for a daughter – kay or hannah

*DO YOU PREFER*
39. Chocolate or vanilla? vanilla
40. Coffee or Capp.? capp
41. Long relationships or one-night stands? long relationships
42. Dogs or cats? dogs
43. Scary movies or comedies? i like both, but scary movies are really fun!
44. Short or long hair on the opposite sex? depends on who you're talking aboutt
45. Croutons or bacon bits? croutons

*FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND*
46.Chainsaws – that noise that they makee
47. School – shit. homework
48. Cows – tiiip
49. Canadians – uncle tom
50 Mouse – eek!
51. Hand – small

*THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU*
52. Talked on the phone? very minimally, but yes
53. Watched a movie? ive watched a little bit of a few movies
54. Cried? yah
55. Smoked? no sir
56. Drank a glass of water? mmhm
57. Used drugs? no ma'am
58. Read a book or magazine? im reading A Farewell to Arms by Hemingway
59. Watched TV? what else is there to do?
60. Looked in the mirror? id have to say yes..
61. Taken a shower? one a day, keeps the smelly away
62. Taken a picture? yes
63. Listened to music? its like air, how can i not?
64. Told someone you love them? yeah, but it got accidentally got deleted...
65. how do they feel? i have no idea
Time: 7: 54

i never see you around, anywhere or anymore, you are what im looking for.

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 00:09:11 GMT

is there something separating us?
are we building it up or helping to remove it?
i say, bring on the demolition!

today i thought about the day before Maine. and the morning of.

goodness gracious, great balls of FIRE.

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 21:52:30 GMT

I MADE THE SOUND OF MUSIC!
everyone already knows this, but i felt the need to document it.
i want to be a nun and a neighbor an a nazi, but i know you cannot have it all.
i would basically scrape gum off of the seats in the theatre to do it, or at least just be a nun and a neighbor. ;)
SUCH A FULL SCHEDULE!
i walked into seminar today not having any plans for like a million years, and then as i left, so many plans got booked. i did sign up for Brass chior, and practice is starting, first one on wednesday. then ATL practice after school, and during seminars so i'll actually have to start doing my homework at home. wow. what a concept. and then the play will start eating up time soon...kinda. really can't come soon enough. i really dont like sitting by myself at home, and ever since..ive had enormous amounts of free time.
BIRTDAY!
on Thursday, November 30th, 2006, Sara Eileen Long will officially be 16 years old! i was more excited about it last week, and more excited than that a week before. the closer it gets, more i dont want it to come. the best and worst times have been when i was fifteen. im ready to leave it and start over but there are times i will miss, and miss right now. just like Cher.
89X STOLE CHRISTMAS!
i'm pumped about it. December 14th, Cobo. it shall be so fun. i really cannot wait at ALLL. My Chemical Romance, Ok go, Taking Back Sunday...sheesh i cannot even wait.
THE END.
tomorrow's another day.
like a butterfly, i will shed away my shyness and fear.
it's a fresh, new start. and you dont know how happy it makes me.

my heart wants to sing every song it hears...

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 23:59:40 GMT

YAY TRYOUTS!!

i think i did good, well i did my best anyway and im damn proud of it.
they asked me to sing it TWICE if that means anything, which im hoping it does!
whatever, hopes wont be too high just in case it doesnt happen. well if it doesnt i will not be hesitating to join stagecraft/crew/pitband/anythingtogetmeoutofclass.

you can bet on it. ;)
you can also bet that this wont get me down.
no matter what happens, i'm going to be happy.
you can bet on it. :D

justsitstill,justsitstill,justsitstill,justsitstill,justsitstill

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 01:40:51 GMT

In spite of you
Even out of view
Still I love all of you
I do, well

You, you want nothing to do with me
You, you want nothing to do with me

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 20:34:22 GMT

never
clean
your
room,
you
find
sad
things
under
your
bed.

yup. just one giant mope-ball. HEY GUESS WHAT. I'M NOT ALRIGHT, and I'M NOT OVER IT. MY FEELINGS HAVEN'T CHANGED AT ALL.

im sorry. all i do is complain in here and i know everyone is sick and tired of hearing it.
i wish i could be sick and tired of feeling it.

head for the hills:://the.kitchens.on.fire.

we sing from the DIAPHRAM ALOT!

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 04:39:16 GMT

item uno) my hair is 50% bright red. it makes me happy. my personality was squashed and now its not!
item zwei) im really bored cuz no ones online, but tonight was fun cuz i went to abby's and hung out with her and joe and that only happens once every hundred years, like the comet.
item three)i really can't wait for tomorrow. im supposed to go to a football game and on a photo extravaganza and i hope everything works out as planned.

revisited by old livejournal past.

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 01:06:42 GMT

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[X] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[X] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[x] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I've seen a therapist.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am comfortable about being me.
[x] I play computer games/video games.
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in an LJ relationship
[ ] Gotten lost in my city.
[ ] Saw a shooting star
[x] I Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] I have kissed a stranger
[ ] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[ ] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been close to love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[fracture] Broken a bone
[ ] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[ ] Done a split
[ ] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[ ] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[ ] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[ ] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/sub
[ ] Celebrated mardi gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[ ] Eaten Sushi..
[ ] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[x] Been moshing at a rock show
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[ ] Taken painkillers
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now